Want to Stay

I used to write poetry and music. I say "used to" because I've had a serious struggle to write for the past several years. I sit at the piano and play, but no words come. The music is there, but the words just aren't.  My ability to express myself with words left me during a time of personal difficulty and heartache. I try to sing and my voice isn't strong like it used to be. Chronic reflux and a hernia in my esophagus limit my vocal strength. I don't even think most people know how important music and writing are to me anymore. Perhaps that's one of the reasons I keep this blog, it has me writing again. Mostly silly posts that probably don't change the world, but they help me.

I wrote and recorded the song "Want to Stay" about six years ago. Sometimes I listen to it and wonder who that girl singing with so much confidence is. Is that really be me? The words of this song give me great hope. Hope that with faith in the Lord that which has been lost will someday be restored. Hope that this is all just a training ground for better and brighter days. Hope in Christ.

I was standing in the same place day after endless day
Waiting for life to happen, hoping to find my way.
I used to dream about the girl, I someday hoped to be
I couldn't see that all along, God was molding me.

I took a step out of the darkness, and into his marvelous light
I know I'm where I should be now, cause this just feels so right
Hope this feeling never fades, don't let it slip away,
Cause where I am right now is where I want to stay.

Even though I can't see now, just what the future brings,
I will obey and I'll press on in small and simple things
I'm holding on to faith in God and trusting in His plan
He sees the things that I can't see and he takes me by the hand

He takes me out of the darkness and into his marvelous light
I know I'm where I should be now, cause this just feels so right

Hope this feeling never fades, don't let it slip away, 

Cause where I am right now is where I want to stay.

I won't cast away my confidence when uncertainty abounds

I will be still and see God's light, shining through dark clouds

With the Lord as my light I can clearly see the path that I should take

He knows the way and he understands, he suffered for my sake

He takes me out of the darkness and into his marvelous light

I know I'm where I should be now, cause this just feels so right

Hope this feeling never fades, don't let it slip away, 

Cause where I am right now,

Yes in the light of God is where I want to stay.

With Hope,

L