Friday, March 23, 2012
Do You See Me?
The other day I saw this lovely little butterfly flitting all around happily enjoying the spring weather. He would pause on a branch long enough to allow me enough time to set up a nice photograph, then happily set of flying again.
I love how his bright orange wings stand out against the rough grey bark and evergreen background. The contrast is striking, making no mistake about who or what the focal point is.
Lately I have felt a bit unseen and misunderstood. I guess I'm just still trying to find my place, and figure out what direction the Lord wants me to go. I'm doing good things and progressing, just not necessarily in the ways I thought I would be.
For some reason many people have recently decided that it's quite okay to inquire about our lack of children. It's so hard for me to know what to say and how to react politely to such personal inquiries. "Have you guys ever thought about having children?" How long have you been married?" "How old are you anyways?" "By the time I was thirty I had six children." and so on...
I could write a good long post about how deeply those questions hurt, but for right now I'm choosing to keep those thoughts and feelings private. I'll just say this... Like a caterpillar knows it was born to be a butterfly, I know what I was born to be... and I'm doing my best to reach my potential within God's timing. I wish they could see that.