The other day I had to go to the mall to pick up a stamp at the scrapbooking store... If going to the doctors office had been embarassing, how could I face the mall?! All those trendy people, and teenagers?! I tried to think of a way of out of it, but in order to meet my deadline, I had no other choice. There wasn't going to be time to wait until I felt more presentable. I told myself, "Lynley, this is a lesson in confidence!" Silly, I know, but for me this was a brave thing to do. I knew that my swollen face and red rash all around my eyes was very noticable, and I wondered what people would think. I had a few strange looks, like one young man who seemed to strain to take a closer look, I presume he was trying to see what was wrong with me--and really I can't blame him, it was kind of fascinating. Overall, though, I was really impressed with how "normal" my trip to the mall actually was. Nobody said anything mean, the store clerk was pleasant and helpful, and other than MY OWN insecurities, it was as if nothing about me was actually different. I held my head high as I walked back through the mall and out to the parking lot.
Cute little Mauri was a bit frightened when she first saw me, but after I explained that my eyes were "sick," she shrugged her shoulders and asked if I wanted to go "play school" with her. She wanted to know if Dolly and Danny had sick eyes too and has insisted on calling to check on me throughout the week. She was quick to see past outward appearances and treat me like normal.
Funny how I keep going back the word "normal." Perhaps normal=accepted. I think there's more to that for me to ponder and learn...
- Confidence and beauty come from within.
- Most people are truly kind-hearted and aren't going to poke fun of others.
- Most people are understanding and can recognize when someone is sick or struggling.
- Hold your head high, even when you feel like your weaknesses are on display--other's don't notice or worry about them as much as you do
- When you see someone who looks different, it's not your job to analyze them or take a closer look. Just smile and treat them normally.
- Recognize that others are naturally curious, and don't take offense if they do take a closer look. (I'm certain I have been the one to look a little closer on many occassions